Tiny Wins, Big Feelings and Trampoline Chaos

April has felt like a bit of a whirlwind.

There have been some really big moments this month the kind that feel important and exciting, but day to day life has still been just as chaotic in between (if not slightly louder).

One of the biggest positives is that H has been offered a place at his first choice primary school for September, which feels huge. It’s one of those moments where you pause for a second, feel really proud… and then immediately get dragged back into real life by someone shouting, crying, or launching something across the room.

The twins have both had their own little milestones too.

Twin B has started potty training, which is a whole new phase in itself (and comes with its own level of unpredictability), and Twin A has finally had a referral through for Chatterbox and will be having an assessment. We’re still waiting on the official SALT assessment, but it feels like things are slowly, very slowly, starting to move in the right direction for her.

The weather has definitely helped this month.

We’ve been outside a lot more, and my mum bought the kids a trampoline, which has quickly become the main event of the day. H’s current favourite activity is bouncing a space hopper so it flies back up and hits him, which seems to be both the goal and the entertainment. I’m not entirely sure what the aim is, but he’s committed to it.

The kids being able to be feral outside instead of inside has honestly been a bit of a game changer. Things feel calmer, there’s more space, and slightly less destruction happening indoors (slightly being the key word here).

The twins’ personalities are really starting to come through now as well.

Twin A has definitely found her cheeky side this month, while Twin B is still the kindest little girl you could meet, until something doesn’t go her way, and then she makes sure everyone knows about it immediately.

We’ve had less of the… let’s call them “room incidents” this month, which feels like progress. Not a full win, but definitely progress. The Houdini routine is still very much ongoing though, so we’re not celebrating too early.

Food has also been a bit of a challenge with Twin A. We’re struggling to get her to eat her own meals, she’s very much in her picky phase and seems to prefer snack-type foods or whatever happens to be on someone else’s plate instead.

H has had some really lovely big brother moments too. If one of the twins doesn’t want their nappy changed, he’ll offer to do it himself and tries to help, which is equal parts helpful, chaotic, and slightly concerning, but also really sweet.

That being said, this month has also felt heavier in other ways.

H’s meltdowns have been more intense, and some of the behaviours have felt harder to manage than before. It’s been one of those reminders that things don’t always move in a straight line, you can have progress in one area and chaos ramp up in another just to keep things interesting.

Alongside all of this, it’s been a tough month for me physically.

I’ve been struggling with dizziness, especially when I’m standing or too warm, and just generally feeling run down. Some of my blood tests have come back showing a few deficiencies, and I’m still waiting on further tests, so that’s all ongoing in the background.

Trying to keep up with everything while not feeling 100% has definitely made things feel harder this month, especially when the day doesn’t exactly slow down to match your energy levels.

There have been days where everything has just felt like too much at once.

The kind of days where nothing settles, everyone needs something different at the exact same time, and you’re just trying to keep things ticking over without it completely unravelling. Not every day is a good day… and some days are just about survival (and maybe getting through without anyone redecorating the house).

But in between all of that, there have been small moments.

The ones where they’re all playing nicely outside.
The ones where something actually works for five minutes.
The ones that remind you it’s not all chaos, even when it feels like it.

April hasn’t been neat or predictable.

It’s been big moments, small wins, harder days, trampoline chaos, and everything in between.

And the reality is, even with the milestones and progress, life here is still just as chaotic, just with slightly better weather.

But we’re still going, still figuring it out, and still doing our best.